I had some bleeding and pain in church on Sunday, and by 9:00pm, I had miscarried. I cannot tell you how heartbreaking it was. How painful, physically and emotionally, it is to birth your child that is no bigger than a prune. We have chosen the name, Darcy Bubbles, as her name. Our older children are convinced it was a girl, and deep down, I feel she was a girl as well. I was surrounded by my wonderful Mother-in-law, Husband, and loving Parents throughout the process; and had a beautiful visit from my amazing friend, Janelle.
I ended up being kept in the hospital overnight due to a continued allergic reaction to the pain med they had me on. I passed out once. I was able to go home the next afternoon. I am still in a lot of pain; taking pain meds every 4 hours.
The hardest part was having to tell my super-excited children that Bubbles was not coming home; that she is in heaven with Jesus. They were devastated. They loved Darcy SO SO much, and were looking forward to meeting her and loving on her.
We were able to take her body home, and we will bury her with us. My husband found a beautiful headstone for our little Darcy.
We know heaven is a better place for Darcy. We know that the Lord had a reason, a purpose for taking Darcy so soon. He loves Darcy just as much as we do. This was not a punishment for something we did. This was not a twisted joke He decided to play on us. He made a covenant with Bram and I when we became a family, and He tells us that that covenant extends to our children. We have hope and faith that when our time comes, we will see our little Darcy again. What a day of rejoicing that will be!
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